Something of Myself

if only i had a time machine. if only there was a time machine, of course, with a price tag. if only i could see what will become of me in the next 20 years (if there remains something of myself).

how terrible to be in this state of uncertainty. to not know where we are headed. no premonitions even for the next 1 minute. anything could happen! this is the age of materialism. of terrorism. of desires. we dont know what will happen to us and/or our desires. is that what we really want to find out?

yes, i dont think we want to know what we will become. we want to see what will happen to our desires - desires held close to our hearts. of the eclipse that is to come. and pass. the storm. the thunder(s). darkness.

and then light! like thaT! the beginning of things are as astonishing and abrupt (or is it disruptive?) as the end! from darkness to light. from light to darkness. the clouds of our past will make way for the dawn of our tomorrows. if only we could know when this will happen. and also about the next eclipse. life would have been easier and more tolerable. there is education in it. believe me...there is...we just have to look for it!