Something of Myself

Thursday, January 27, 2005

An attempt at Life!

It's been ages since I last wrote an entry: for those who don't know, the reason being the sudden, untimely and shocking death of my father.

It has left my world in pieces (you might ask - when was it not?)! But, I am holding up well. I am giving this life, without Baba, my very best shot. I have given up on the idea of doing my PhD but I have not given up the dream. That remains. To be chased like an elusive maiden - fully formed, definite in character but it's only presence is its absence!

I have got a job as a copywriter in a communication agency in Calcutta. Not a great pay but surely helps to contribute. Trying my best to do my job to the best of my ability. I am liking it. I don't have a choice to say "No".

Ma is the one I am worried about. 28 years of companionship and then just 3 hours of melodrama - or should we say 3 hours of mundane existence, leading to death! She can't take it anymore; keeps on weeping and sobbing and howling! Can't see her like this. But I guess, with time, she will adjust.

I hope she does.

Life moves on. The motto remains the same - "Miles to go before I sleep" and of course, I got "promises to keep."

I got a letter from Dad which he had posted me for my birthday. I got it posted back to me in Cal. Among other things he said the following:

"Honesty and character is very essential in everything you do."

Dad, I will keep that in mind. I will etch in my heart - in the remotest corner of my heart; silently it will remain - only you and me will know.
posted by Pele at 10:59 am

4 Comments:

love u vvv much. tried sms'g but no response? will call on weekend

1:54 pm  

Me too. I'll wait for your call. Never got any text.
Miss you. Lots! Take care.

12:34 pm  

I am very sorry about your baba. I can try to imagine how you might feel since I too am very close to my dad.

I hope God gives you and your family the courage and strength to move on.

--Anonymous

10:41 pm  

Thank you. But who's this?

12:22 pm  

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