Something of Myself
Thursday, January 27, 2005
An attempt at Life!
It's been ages since I last wrote an entry: for those who don't know, the reason being the sudden, untimely and shocking death of my father.
It has left my world in pieces (you might ask - when was it not?)! But, I am holding up well. I am giving this life, without Baba, my very best shot. I have given up on the idea of doing my PhD but I have not given up the dream. That remains. To be chased like an elusive maiden - fully formed, definite in character but it's only presence is its absence!
I have got a job as a copywriter in a communication agency in Calcutta. Not a great pay but surely helps to contribute. Trying my best to do my job to the best of my ability. I am liking it. I don't have a choice to say "No".
Ma is the one I am worried about. 28 years of companionship and then just 3 hours of melodrama - or should we say 3 hours of mundane existence, leading to death! She can't take it anymore; keeps on weeping and sobbing and howling! Can't see her like this. But I guess, with time, she will adjust.
I hope she does.
Life moves on. The motto remains the same - "Miles to go before I sleep" and of course, I got "promises to keep."
I got a letter from Dad which he had posted me for my birthday. I got it posted back to me in Cal. Among other things he said the following:
"Honesty and character is very essential in everything you do."
Dad, I will keep that in mind. I will etch in my heart - in the remotest corner of my heart; silently it will remain - only you and me will know.
It's been ages since I last wrote an entry: for those who don't know, the reason being the sudden, untimely and shocking death of my father.
It has left my world in pieces (you might ask - when was it not?)! But, I am holding up well. I am giving this life, without Baba, my very best shot. I have given up on the idea of doing my PhD but I have not given up the dream. That remains. To be chased like an elusive maiden - fully formed, definite in character but it's only presence is its absence!
I have got a job as a copywriter in a communication agency in Calcutta. Not a great pay but surely helps to contribute. Trying my best to do my job to the best of my ability. I am liking it. I don't have a choice to say "No".
Ma is the one I am worried about. 28 years of companionship and then just 3 hours of melodrama - or should we say 3 hours of mundane existence, leading to death! She can't take it anymore; keeps on weeping and sobbing and howling! Can't see her like this. But I guess, with time, she will adjust.
I hope she does.
Life moves on. The motto remains the same - "Miles to go before I sleep" and of course, I got "promises to keep."
I got a letter from Dad which he had posted me for my birthday. I got it posted back to me in Cal. Among other things he said the following:
"Honesty and character is very essential in everything you do."
Dad, I will keep that in mind. I will etch in my heart - in the remotest corner of my heart; silently it will remain - only you and me will know.
